Now or later?

I'm trying to decide whether to have surgery "now" (if I chose to do that, I wouldn't get an appointment until into November at the earliest), or wait until the first of the year, when I'll have a whole new set of vacation days to work with. Of course, if I go next year (after January, actually, which is only a couple of months), I will have a new insurance deductible to deal with, but I believe having more sick/vacation days will offset that problem.

I am also avoiding making the decision because of the pretty bad odds of having a bad outcome-- either incontinence (the chance of that is roughly 1 in 3), or impotence (the odds of that aren't well defined, but I believe it's worse!).

There's a voice inside me that wants to have sex every minute from now until they wheel me into the operating room so that I can feel like I gave it a good try. And then there's the thought that maybe nothing of the sort will happen-- that the outcome will be fine, that I'll end up in the majority and have bladder control and the ability to get and maintain an erection and everything will just go on happily ever after. I have to admit that before I just typed it, this possibility hadn't occurred to me. I shall think about that.

Tally ho!!